I’m learning to be more patient with myself.

The most difficult lesson I’ve had to learn was patience. Not with others, but with myself. I have to remember that just because something doesn’t happen in the time I thought it would, doesn’t mean that I’m in the wrong place, nor does it mean that I’m doing the wrong thing. Throughout my lifetime I’ve heard that patience was “the highest order of discipline” and that it was the “epitome of strength.” I’m beginning to understand why. Patience helps to keep you in tune with yourself by helping to avoid keep making rash or impulsive decisions, teaches you humility and self-control and how to calm your mind, and most importantly allows you, almost forces you to appreciate what you have now. Because if you don’t appreciate what you have and where you are now, you’ll never be satisfied with what the future brings. I am no where near to mastering this virtue, but I’m thankful to be learning.

The chase isn’t so thrilling

If I have to keep chasing you, I’ll eventually lose interest in you. The only things I chase after are my success and my personal happiness, but placing that happiness around one individual is not something I want to do. I’m just not about that. I refuse to always be the initiator, always expressing myself, just to get and keep your attention. I am very honest with my intentions and have no problems expressing my interest in you, but I can’t be the only one doing it. If that’s not enough for you, that’s fine, just don’t keep me hanging on. If you won’t recognize my presence, I can’t adequately court you. I can’t express myself to someone who won’t even engage with me. That’s not my idea of courting or romance. I deserve more than that.

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Brandon* (@eyelovebrandon) - Momentorium

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Courting

June 2008:

Me: “I have my heart set on courting you.”

Girl: That’s so cute. But I kind of like thuggish guys. Sorry, can’t help how I feel.

Me: (heart breaks) “Alright.” *walks away with hands in pockets, eyes toward the sky.*

May 2013 Facebook post:

Girl: “Why don’t guys court women? I want a guy to pursue me genuinely. Not these thuggish dudes that approach me.”

Me: *Logs off Facebook and walks away with hands in pockets, eyes toward the sky.*

Regarding Mentorship

If I can’t relate to you, I don’t want to be mentored by you. It’s not just your victories, rewards and achievements that help me understand who you are, but also your insecurities and failures. The real strength of any person is knowing their limitations, and you will never be as powerful as you can be until you know what your weaknesses are.

Don’t live by other people’s standards.

He’s not a loser if he’s 30 and lives with his parents. She’s not a hoe if she had a baby out of wedlock. They’re not stuck up if they chose not to date someone they’re not attracted to. There are thousands of reasons people do what they do, and even more reasons people are in the situations they’re in. We need to be more understanding of people. A little bit more caring, and a little bit more patient. Just speaking for myself, but Its taken me a long time to understand that I can’t live by society’s standards or people’s expectations.


Its taken me a long time to understand that I can’t live by society’s standards or people’s expectations.

Nostalgia.

Nostalgia.

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If you tell me that you “love me”, trust that you will need evidence to support your statement. I don’t have time for people who use meaningful words casually to advance their own agendas. Love has a foundation.